In the memory

親愛的父親
要待你走了許久以後，我發現其實我是介意的

我像一個活在影子裡的人

當別的小孩親暱拉著爸爸的手, 我則會怯怯地躲在一旁

怕被人注意到孤獨地站著的我
老師問我有關父親的事情時，我總是興高采烈的"大話西遊"
事實上
我從未感受過父親，也從未被正式承認過
一直到安排喪禮的時候，才見過家裡的其他人

一直在尋找那近乎父愛般的戀愛，想從年長的人身上得到安全感
想借此彌補心裡面那個破洞

身邊的人總不明白, 看來開朗健談的我, 怎麼老是人於千里之外
或許是為了保護自己吧
又或許因為我不習慣接受別人的關懷
習慣了獨行的我，老是覺得別人不會對我這怪人有興趣

午夜夢迥時，我也曾經見過你的身影
夢見你坐在輪椅上，而我則推著你在緩緩散步
真相是，我們從來未如此親近過
一點一滴的
到現在，我們之間就只剩下回憶而已

Happy 3rd Anniversary

This April marks Man Man's 3rd birthday, and also the 3rd year since we knew each other.
Happy Anniversary to us, may there be many more.

巧遇彭浩翔

今天在電影中心看了朋友熱烈推介的<志明與春嬌>

這是關於都市裡一對平凡男女的愛情故事: 在每一條後巷裡，都可以找到一個志明或春嬌
電影節奏明快，沒有一句多餘造作的對白。很羨慕那些人能操那麼流利的粗口哩(絕對沒有貶意)
令人驚喜的是導演本人親到戲院視察，並和現場觀眾作Q & A，暢談拍攝這部電影的花絮

彭導演講到他有感現在很多香港電影資金多來自大陸，以致拍出來的戲越來越內地化，完全失卻本土味道，所以很想拍一齣完全屬於香港人的戲。他說他實在太熱愛這個城市了 (me too!)
戲裡很多情節均是他或他身邊的人的經歷，當中包括多幕令全場爆笑的gag位。有觀眾問到，男女主角從相識到戀愛僅僅不過7天，是不是太快了一點

彭導演說，現今男女的愛情來得快去得快，7天時間是合理的了
戲中的轉折位是當雙方愛意開始萌芽，女主角主動向男方表達關心，男的一方卻猶豫起來

剛剛結束前一段戀情的他，明顯不想那麼快便再被綁住:男生都害怕被束縛，然而不是每一個女生都喜歡管頭管腳的。不過，這大概也是男女間的分別吧

p.s: 儘管我不是一個煙民，但對戲中各人聚集後巷煲煙而形成的"社群"十分感興趣呢。不吸煙的我，真的錯失了那麼多認識新朋友的機會嗎？？

My Fu*king Booking Life

Dear TP colleagues

Hello there, I'm writing this letter to show my appreciation to all of you. You son of a b*tch.

I would like to thank you for bringing those fu*king deals to HK office, while those clients ALWAYS had no sufficient money, no PSR, no documents or even no MX account.

I would also like to thank you for having us to record the trades, that we ALWAYS have to bear the risk being accused by the authorities and we dun even have a clue what the fu*k you sold to the clients. (thank you so much that we dun even count a dollar for taking such a big risk.)

Thank you all, it's always been a pleasure for me to meet you guys. I never imagined that there were so many a**holes living in the same planet with me.

Boss, I would also like to say thank you to you. You were also such an idiot that approved nearly EVERYTHING. If someone wrote you an email requesting to share your wife, I believe you would say "ok" as well.

Dear guys, really appreciate for bringing such a brilliant life to me. Wish you all a good time in Ching Ming Festival. God bless you and all your fu*king deals.

Best Regards
An angry and exhausted girl

The Lovely Bones (2009)

These were the lovely bones that had grown around my absence: the connections — sometimes tenuous, sometimes made at great cost, but often magnificent — that happened after I was gone. And I began to see things in a way that let me hold the world without me in it. The events my death brought were merely the bones of a body that would become whole at some unpredictable time in the future. The price of what I came to see as this miraculous lifeless body had been my life.             

Life must carry on....

這是一個關於after life 的故事
主人翁蘇絲14歲時在放學回家的路上慘遭殺害
死後蘇絲捨不得離開她所愛的人，並留在天上繼續俯瞰人間，
觀看朋友和家人失去她後驟變的生活
這不是一個偵察故事，查案過程以致兇手的下場並不是故事重點
重點是蘇絲的家人、朋友甚至是她自己，如何走過陰霾，在黑暗盡頭裡找出生機

最初的時候，蘇絲以為留下來陪伴著家人便能助他們走過困境
然而，當日子一天一天的過，蘇絲才發現，要真正令她愛的人釋懷
是要放下仇恨，放下過去，讓家人繼續眼前的生活
讓他們接受她已離去的事實
因此儘管當時兇手仍在逍遙法外，但蘇絲選擇了離去

Because love is about letting go

p.s: I couldn't help thinking when I was on the way home: It has been some years since you left. Dad, are you still watching me over the 'in between', or, have you already passed the gate and arrived in heaven?